Everyday life on mantou's blog

Is time rewinding possible?

Sun, 16 Aug 2026 00:00:00 +0800

When it comes to testing itself, the most important thing at that time is to see whether it is strong enough to be patient, not how ambitious its goals are. I’ve just returned from Hong Kong to Guangzhou with a sense of loss and a sense of frustration. Since then, however, confidence has increased considerably and has been encouraged. But at the same time, I found that I still have a lot to catch up with. Because the gap between yourself and the target is still clear, there is still a lot more to be done… I appreciate my teacher’s care, my friends’ interest and encouragement. And since this time, it has strengthened my heart. At the same time, some of the lessons learned should be brought to light as soon as possible, in order to make her happy. It’s easier to do it, but it’s even more disappointing to know that you don’t try to do it. While it is unlikely that the road ahead will go smoothly, we will encourage you on the ground as we work to do so. It’s more worth living together in a more spiritual state!

An exhausting Saturday

Sat, 15 Aug 2026 00:00:00 +0800

I’ve had a hard day, and I don’t want to fight with any words…

Just write it down here!

Pop Mart, again

Fri, 14 Aug 2026 00:00:00 +0800

The greatest feeling today is that there’s not enough sleep, and there’s a lot of fun to lose.

It would seem that the best state of affairs would be to have a good amount of energy and high-quality sleep, so that things would go very well.

In Hong Kong today, during the free time, he went to Hong Kong’s Pop mart. For nothing else, it’s just to see if the underground shop outside the mainland is still hot. The result was a lot better than expected…

Down south.

Thu, 13 Aug 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Thunder showers continued in the morning, midday in broad daylight, afternoon in the middle of the afternoon, and at night in the middle of the night. When it rained, the thunder sounded like God was angry. When the sun comes out, it’s like a popsicle on a hot pot, and I just want to go back to my freezer as soon as possible. In fact, what’s the difference between being in the environment that you’ve been in lately?

Clear the space.

Wed, 12 Aug 2026 00:00:00 +0800

As soon as I got home in the afternoon, I started packing up my pets: the destination of more than 30 hamsters. As planned in advance, I have carried out one-stop disposal operations on them. With the exception of the only gold bear left in advance, no excess pets are now in hand. It is also with the rapid and decisive handling of its own, that the air quality in its own house has risen considerably and decisively. For useless things, it should be thrown; Some of my character characteristics can be seen in the way things are disposed of. It is a natural choice to measure rationally, without any intriguing or not.

An afternoon of vibe coding

Tue, 11 Aug 2026 00:00:00 +0800

This afternoon, the vibe coding came to an end, while trying to say that I’m finished with this reply, and the result was an hour later than the original intention. Although the whole process has been inexhaustible, it has only begun to come to light when the whole of the four tasks were finally completed. But it’s not unusual, it’s five hours at a time, six hours at a time, and it’s a miracle not to have a sore back in front of the computer.

A day without words or sound

Sat, 08 Aug 2026 00:00:00 +0800

This afternoon, as I was doing my English hearing training the next day, the bigger I was, the more upset I was. Even though the words are clear, the brain cells in the brain are already mixed up and can’t do anything. They’re very upset. So, after watching a play, I chose to go out, instead of staying in the café to be ready to knock on the code or do something else.

A day to pause and regroup

Wed, 05 Aug 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Today is actually an interesting day, because the plan that was originally set up on an ad hoc basis was suddenly disrupted. This is one of them. Second of all, in order to make a better study of Bubble Matt, he went to the underdoor shop and left the charger in the store…

It’s not much, it’s even more ridiculous that I was going to design a system of fitness and English learning, and then my cell phone died because it was too much work…

Tuesday: calm on the surface, turbulent underneath

Tue, 04 Aug 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Just finished the iterative exercise of gymnastics and oral exercises, and again, it’s 21:43 at night. It’s late, but it’s definitely worth it. Who made us like this? For a better future, we are working hard to chart our own future. In fact, when you get into society, it’s rarely a moment like this, because it’s for yourself, it’s well-targeted, it’s exciting!

Here’s what I wrote this afternoon in my community:

Last day.

Thu, 30 Jul 2026 00:00:00 +0800

There seems to be a little more anxiety in my life. Recently and often, things that are quite normal (small things) are magnified indefinitely, and you know how funny it is and it is not worth it. But that is what you do all the time, and it’s a state of indulgence. And then I felt like I needed to correct it, and then I found myself too vulnerable to such a reality.

Good work? Well, work hard.

Tue, 28 Jul 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Having AI’s life, it seems that the dry days have become fun. For example, when I was stuck in a computer for almost four years, with the help of AI, a few days after it was fixed, the computer suddenly became lightweight. To be honest, this has led to a growing sense of satisfaction and pride. After all, even though AI is strong, it still needs to be done after my command.

Nothing to write about.

Fri, 24 Jul 2026 00:00:00 +0800

There seems to be no change without fear or concern. When looking for a job, he fears that he will not be able to find a suitable job; When a job is found that appears to be suitable for the time being, an anxiety is expressed as to whether or not the work content is adequate before going to work; After work, it may affect its own future in the company, for example, because it falls short of the standards of the day or the month. It’s just the direction of work, and that’s all that’s happened in the last decade or so. In the middle of school life, the emotional problems of men and women at puberty are also compounded. It’s like it’s always been a matter of concern. It’s like every day it’s filled with worries or nodes…

Friends visiting from Shenzhen

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Last night until the end of 10:46 this morning, he was in a state of tension. In order to do a very important “sales” job, I spent extra time and energy working with AI at night to simulate the next day’s content. To be honest, because it’s night, my energy is clearly out of line and my memory is clearly out of order. So, after a brief preparation exercise, more thorough preparation was done before the beginning of the morning of the next day. There was some tension, and after several advance preparations, it was as if it was not worth the panic. Because those parts that need to be prepared are, in fact, ready to be prepared, at best, simply to be familiar with the process…

Tuesday night.

Tue, 21 Jul 2026 00:00:00 +0800

This afternoon was kind of a free afternoon, and in the context of the feeling that dinner was a little tedious, it was decided to go for a spicy meal. It’s real. It’s real. It’s real. It’s real. Because food like that would be heavy and salty, and it would be a big challenge to a person to lose weight…

It is true that today’s work has been a little longer, but it has been a little easier. The fact that it had not happened was a temporary relief because of its fear of being unpaid. It is also strange that, although it took a long time to rest, to sleep at more than 9:00 last night and to wake up at 7:00 a.m., it is not as good today as it was yesterday when you were in a much less sleeper state. Maybe it’s about sleeping time, too? But with only two days of experimentation, it might be wiser to look at it and find out.

A day experimenting with an early start

Mon, 20 Jul 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Yesterday, after almost a full afternoon, significant progress was made on such issues as “morning, eating, learning in foreign languages and sleeping”! Not only is this improvement more concise and clear, but it is also the kind of improvement that needs to be addressed at first hand. It’s kind of smooth, I guess. Like sleeping three hours early last night and getting up at least 30 minutes early. When you get up, it’s sleep efficiency that can be clearly sensed. As a result, my oral and morning exercises were successfully advanced. But when I woke up slowly at around 7.40 a.m., I would have given up morning practice sooner or later, not to mention oral exercises. In addition to doing these things, the time left for yourself to go out is long enough, and the overall state is really good!

Work

Sun, 19 Jul 2026 00:00:00 +0800

In almost the last six months, the most stupid thing to do was to try to go to the “Openai wool”, thus delaying the use of more advanced productivity. I’ve been using ChatGPT all along, because I’ve got a lot of offshore bank cards to deal with the issue of payment channels! As a result, I’ve been trying to get a free one-month GPT member’s mind to fill it. In all possible ways, for almost 100 days, the effort was exhausted. And it was not until yesterday that the payment was finally settled… and it was only because Gemini couldn’t bear to pay for it, instead of taking advantage of it. Once the real money and silver are paid, it’ll work! It’s beautiful. It’s really being held to death…

Cell phone number

Fri, 17 Jul 2026 00:00:00 +0800

In the afternoon, the DIY white card started to follow the curriculum already available on the Internet. The whole process was not as easy as it was, but it was felt that there were still a lot of “challenges” to do something along the curriculum. While the curriculum that you see is basically a work in progress, the process also reveals that there are many unconventional factors that affect each of your operations: the network, the flow of mobile phones, the different configuration interfaces of different mobile phones, or the operating system … There is no one-size-fits-all course, as the author says, that can inevitably be transformed into a different path by one factor or another, so that the path has changed so differently.

Thirty kilometers a day…

Thu, 16 Jul 2026 00:00:00 +0800

I wanted some pasta in the afternoon, and I snuck up on the street to find it. In fact, there’s only two of them: 18 and the alley. In fact, he prefers to go to the alleys, but the other district is still ahead of him, so he hesitates to make a decision after a while: to go to his favorite shop, “Travelling the alleys”.

I actually didn’t want to do anything in my head when I was sitting in a café in the afternoon, so I just turned around with my cell phone and came up with a few interesting ideas in my head. Having interacted with AI, it also became more clear to itself that, whatever it is, it is really about building a system that better and more rationally integrates into a thing that takes a long time and a lot of effort to do.

Scared.

Mon, 13 Jul 2026 00:00:00 +0800

I didn’t sleep well until I woke up last night. Even in the dream, it’s a story in your head. The theme was that he was afraid to do something bad the next day, which was difficult to deal with, and to anticipate the difficulties in his mind and in his dreams. So, I’ve been in a bad state for more than 10 hours before 9:00. It’s terrible! Dreams of many of the things you’re afraid of: the fear of going to work and being late to play cards, not being able to get into school, not being able to do the job, getting lost…

Challenges

Sun, 12 Jul 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Every time it reaches the end of the week, there will be a review of its current mandate and a second week ’ s intention. This week, the work was done with great care, but it was felt to have been too much of a rush. Indeed, it is not easy, but it also stimulates its ability to do things the next day.

Then suddenly I remembered the reasons for the anxiety, and I found out that I had brought it on myself. Because of the sense of urgency and pressure that they have set for themselves, they become even more vulnerable to anxiety. It’s a bad state, but when can you change it yourself? I think I need to do this by tearing down the bigger targets into smaller parts. Don’t be too hard on yourself, which means you need to eat more and drink better on yourself.

Feeling a little low

Sat, 11 Jul 2026 00:00:00 +0800

I don’t know what to write, but it has become increasingly felt that writing something doesn’t actually solve some problems, some deep ones that seem to be engraved into bone marrow. That was a negative perception of work, which was always felt to be repeated every week. It is a state of disadaptation, of disillusionment with work but of negative dereliction. In such a state of affairs, self-inflicted work seems to be the inevitable consequence of further influence from the pressures of life. So I began to prefer “no heart” and began to be less active…

Fear.

Wed, 08 Jul 2026 00:00:00 +0800

People are weak when they are helpless, like a weak man with no chicken, and then you’re scared, especially when it’s about your own survival. It seemed that no one or company was perfect, and there were always problems like that. This also seems to be an integral part of the process of self-discovery. It slowly turns out that everything has to be seen in a calm mind. Nervousness is useless, panicking is a worse option. It’s a situation in which fear and fear are common, but these emotions are useless.

So I have a cold?

Mon, 06 Jul 2026 00:00:00 +0800

A little pursuit is actually one of the engines of health. For example, images that excite themselves: videos of travel in Tokyo or images that use Japanese to communicate with others. There is always unstoppable excitement and expectation when it comes to thinking that it is actually within its power to achieve such a situation.

Last night’s sleep was almost 30% better than the night before, but this afternoon’s self-study was still in poor condition. Maybe it’s the effect of sleep. I still need more sleep to get back to my state.

I almost fainted.

Fri, 03 Jul 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Today is the day before the storm, and the weather is volatile, either in the sun or in the storm. The weather is always incomprehensible, but it is a temper of ease. People who are not very polite in their work are also very polite and very polite. But sometimes it’s over, but it’s the opposite. So, sometimes posturing control becomes an art.

About yesterday, I found that the sky was getting better and better. That kind of beauty comes from pure beauty, the sky is blue, the clouds are thick and white. Because of this obscurity, it is necessary to be careful of the road conditions at all times to prevent the risk of becoming too obsessed with a car accident.

The night before: wish me luck

Wed, 01 Jul 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Today’s work is a difficult one, because the first user I met rejected me directly, and even because of his reasons, I lost the opportunity to visit potential clients on their floor. It felt like a bad situation at the time, but now we look back and think, if we were each other, why would we not do that? The lack of trust in third parties, the non-acceptance of third-party testing services and the high degree of responsibility of the other side are also a side of the equation. Then it’s easy to understand the other side’s attitude. He’s also a senior senior academic at the Chinese Academy of Sciences, and he’s been pushed by the other side’s own power on many levels.

Finally finding the courage

Sun, 28 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0800

The holiday syndrome begins one night before the first week, on Sunday night, and does not want to work the next day. Even with all the reluctance in the mind, the next day will still need time to return to work. I do know how bad that idea is, because it’s not just once or twice, but it’s often in my head. What makes me think I’m different from most people? Some are worse than others! It seems more obvious than others that they are running away.

Few words, a big matter

Sat, 27 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Today’s points are just a few:

The work was completed, although it did not go well yesterday;
A small opportunity was encountered in the afternoon of coffee and was seized;

Meet your friends and meet your new friends!

Thursday, a week later

Thu, 25 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0800

We have a week to go and hope that we can understand what I mean.

Today’s work as a whole is better than yesterday, and I wonder why. Maybe it was luck! Because I do not think that this is a high percentage of the effort, because my words are not much more obvious, or even less than yesterday’s. But today’s work is 50 minutes ahead of yesterday, and, on the contrary, it requires a high level of attention. It is crucial to determine whether or not you are wise, because it is possible to distinguish between what comes from your own efforts and improvements and what comes from luck.

Information overload

Sat, 20 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0800

20 thought about many things at night

In the early hours of the 21st, the first reading of the Bible was completed!

Victory in the first battle

Wed, 17 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0800

It’s a push today, mainly at the university. One day is counted, and the time it takes to finish is in fact about three hours. What’s the rest of the time? At 8:00 a.m. I waited for 50 minutes for the “older” to come to his destination, then spent an hour eating with him, walking away and listening to each other’s high-pitched lessons for another hour … To tell you the truth, I was so excited when I first got here that I became very uncomfortable after listening to his walk. To be honest, after less than 10 minutes of meeting with the other party, I knew that the other party was not a good salesman. It’s a lot of complaints, and it’s not like there’s a sale to be in, like, one step at a time. It was in this struggle that I overcame today’s work by 4:30 p.m. The next step was to do some sort of sorting, and while I wanted to tell him about his progress, I didn’t think he deserved much respect. So I thought about it, that’s it! I’ll be home at the end of the card.

Not enough sleep

Sat, 13 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0800

It’s not good to be awake! Even I wonder if that’s what caused my unchanging weight and BMI values today. But it’s a joke, because over the past week, your own efforts have been evident. During that time, for example, the number of snacks that I ate earlier than the previous week showed a cliff-like decline, with almost no more snacks being eaten outside the regular meal. This is really good, and there’s nothing to refute. This week, however, was marked by a new change, which led to a new bright spot in the fat process: I started to join the morning exercise for 30 minutes, training all my core muscles more than three times in seven days. And so I think it’s logical that my weight hasn’t changed.

Day two of morning exercise

Thu, 11 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Falling asleep last night was not smooth, so it was quite difficult for me to get up this morning, but I still did my morning exercise at 8:30! Likewise, I felt like my whole body was falling apart, and my bones were breaking away from my flesh and bones as I moved up and down while skipping. So the inspiration after today’s exercise is the same: if you only rely on eating without exercising, you will definitely end up in the queue of abnormality. But soon, my sports equipment will arrive, and it will be more convenient for me to exercise. This will also be an established fact.

Working out!

Wed, 10 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Today’s work focuses on Bible reading and iterating on the fixed investment list, so I am a big step closer to completing the first reading of the Bible by the end of this month. In the face of the established goals, I still have a strong sense of mission. Therefore, the goals I usually set will be exceeded or completed ahead of schedule. This is also a major characteristic of me.

Let's all go out for a walk

Sun, 07 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Something happened today that I think is worth recording. When I was shopping with my friends today, I passed by a Japanese fashion brand store called STUDIOUS, and I was attracted by the decoration style outside. Through the store door, you can see that the clothes inside are all in Japanese simple style, just like the style of Muji. I went in with my friends out of curiosity. The shop assistants inside are indeed very fashionable, and their dressing style is better than what you would encounter in a hard seat in Tokyo. Walking around the whole store, I felt a little uncomfortable but I liked it. Usually when encountering this kind of situation, I have a general price range for the product in my mind.

A day with not enough time

Fri, 29 May 2026 00:00:00 +0800

After measuring my weight every Saturday, I would go to a Yibin noodle restaurant to eat noodles as a “routine”.

Of course, today is no exception!

But when I was almost finished, the aunt in the store said she would give me a bowl of soup or jelly. I chose soup

My aunt was full of curiosity and praised me with a smile on her face, saying that I could live a good life. Because young people my age will eat a lot of food in one meal. As he said this, he pointed to the shop selling beautiful rice next to him.

Unspeakable pain

Wed, 27 May 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Today I have completed the most basic resignation process. I am confused about what to do next. Regarding my next arrangements, I am actually quite unhappy, and even feel vaguely painful. Now that I finally have time to write something, has the real pain in my heart been resolved? Now it seems that it is definitely not the case! There are ten thousand reluctances in my heart, and one million discomforts in my heart. I don’t know how to express myself. But there is a very important point, that is, it is best to take the initiative as much as possible. If you kill all the initiative, you will feel aggrieved by being passive and suppressed. Looking back on myself, why is it not like this?

Thanks for the comfort Micron!

Tue, 26 May 2026 00:00:00 +0800

What does pain feel like? What does it feel like to be complicated and melancholy? What does it feel like to have an explosive state of mind when you are sick? So what does the combination of these three feel like? I can’t answer it, I just feel a little powerless. It feels uncomfortable to watch any movie and feel a little noisy to listen to any sound. I didn’t know what to do, except that what I wanted most was to rest, not to find another job as soon as possible. My current physical condition is really bad, and I still have constant retching. So I can only make some choices decisively, and decisively block people or things that make me feel uncomfortable or withdraw from the environment. My state has been really bad recently. Although it was much better one second, it became bad again the next second. How happy one second is, how painful the next second is. This is absolutely the opposite, and I really can’t understand it.

Getting everything ready

Mon, 25 May 2026 00:00:00 +0800

After waking up today, I finally woke up, so I got up and washed up, then went to Sam’s Supermarket for a walk. There was no purpose, I just really wanted to go in my heart, and then I went. Later, I had dinner with my friends and went out for a stroll. I also took advantage of being with everyone to express my inner thoughts and share them with them. Many of my ideas did feel better after I expressed them. However, there are still some things that are still sinking in my heart, and I cannot really solve them through expression and communication, so I can only digest them slowly by myself. For example, I’m tired of doing things based on other people’s faces at work, but this seems to be somewhat unavoidable. For example, even though you are clearly taking a break, they insist on letting you continue working. If you rest, they will make your rest extremely unpleasant. So the initiative and enthusiasm that I had finally cultivated were extinguished time and time again. So how can I make something like this disappear or be solved by expressing it?

520

Wed, 20 May 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Today, 520, it seems that this year’s 520 isn’t much of a vibe compared to the past. There’s a lot of people on this day, and there’s a lot of people watching the Internet. I’m no exception, and until tonight, there’s not much of a festival-related movement in the friends’ circle. We’re all just working our asses off. We don’t care. What about me? Likewise, I am more concerned about the performance of the British Vadera tonight than I am about such a boring holiday.

5.11

Mon, 11 May 2026 00:00:00 +0800

The content of last night’s blog was actually quite concise, just a few keywords. It seems to be getting more and more perfunctory, but in fact, yesterday was indeed very busy. After getting up in the morning, I go to meet friends and communicate. After lunch, I rush to the cafe to sort out some of my thoughts and inspirations. Just after that, I went shopping for groceries and was invited to a dinner party in the evening. After dinner, I ran to play badminton with new friends. After that, I went to get a haircut💇, take a shower and cupping… After all these were done, it was almost one o’clock in the morning. Due to my health, I really had to make some necessary compromises.

5.10

Sun, 10 May 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Cupping, badminton, review, meeting friends

It's Friday

Fri, 08 May 2026 00:00:00 +0800

When I opened Samsung Notes today, I unexpectedly discovered its update. The icons have become sleeker, and the folders have become larger. Compared with the original icon, this seems to be an “Apple”-style update. What is an “Apple” update? That is a state where the experience is almost perfect. If you are called an Apple person by me, it means you are an Apple person in my eyes. At least that’s what I see.

An honest record

Mon, 04 May 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Today is really tiring. In fact, the most tiring time is when the heart is tired. in particular. When I am full of energy but not strong enough, and at the same time I am being urged to do something, I am the most tired at that time. I used to never understand why adults would often break down over the smallest of things. Broken to the point of helplessness. But now, I actually understand. Because now I feel the same way. Really tired. I’m really tired, I didn’t mean to express negative emotions on purpose.

Everything is about experience!

Thu, 30 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0800

After lunch, I played Minecraft. Because it was survival mode, I had to start building my own house to protect myself in order to survive. Inspired by a previous video blogger, I chose to build my own castle-style house in the air, because it seemed safer that way!

So I picked up the clods of soil and piled them into the air. After piling up a distance as high as the 10 layer of soil, I tried to lay a larger surface around the extremely narrow square soil.

Talk about unexpected situations

Mon, 20 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0800

After getting up today, I took out the meat from the refrigerator to make lunch, and found that there were many small flying mosquitoes flying into the refrigerator! I was stunned for a moment. It was obviously in the refrigerator. How could there be these things? They would have been frozen to death long ago. What if they really flew in? It turned out not to be! I took out the meat and found that the refrigerator was crawling with small flying mosquitoes. When I smelled it, there was a sour smell. When I opened the bag and smelled it, it was even more pungent. But I didn’t eat much and threw it away, which was really a pity! So after struggling for a while, I chose to throw them away.

4.18

Sat, 18 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0800

I went back to my alma mater today and found it quite interesting: there were many familiar scenes, but I felt out of place when I walked on campus. Maybe it’s due to the different perspectives brought by different identities! The campus has also changed a lot. Many facilities have been renovated, and many familiar shops have been closed or replaced with new ones. As a result, many places look a bit unfamiliar. In fact, isn’t this the most authentic trace left by the changes of time?

A radically minimalist individual

Fri, 10 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Every time I pass by a “MUJI” store while shopping, I always go in and have a good browse, even if I am in a hurry.

It is so obsessed with it that it is deeply convinced by its corporate culture. I bet if there are many aspects to its business culture, then the idea of a simple priority must belong to one. In fact, people who have been at a shop without a print can easily sense its simplistic and white design. Its name is actually the original term: unprinted Japanese means “a good commodity without a brand” and it was born in 1980 in a paper-drunk gold fan. At that time in Japan, at the peak of history, people were affected by the wind of luxuries and luxuriousness in their pursuit of big cards and luxury goods. And this one, which started out as a wholesale commodity, has been able to grow to the transnational level that it is today, with so much expansion based on its original concept of “anti-branding”.

I drank four cups of coffee and still didn’t get “drunk”

Sun, 05 Apr 2026 23:42:00 +0800

When I started writing this article, it was already the early morning of the next day. At this moment, I seemed no longer sleepy and not drunk, even though I had drank four cups of coffee, four small glasses of white wine and soju today. At this moment, what I feel more is a sense of reality of “living casually”, a sense of “unruly” free control and a sense of regret of “not having enough fun”.

The first day of Qingming holiday

Sat, 04 Apr 2026 22:46:00 +0800

As soon as the weekend comes to rest, I give priority to thinking about what I will do and learn the next day, and I never think about how to play or relax myself. As time went by, I became a person who would not take a break and the boundary between working days and rest days was blurred to the point where when it was time to relax, I became clumsy. The whole person looked a little dull. Specifically, his movements were somewhat deformed. So now it seems that I have deviated from my original intention, and gradually lived a life that I hate… (It is really bad to not understand the way of life)

Many roads were walked in the rain.

Fri, 03 Apr 2026 19:55:00 +0800

When I first got up, the sunshine coming in from the window made people think it would be a sunny day.

I rode out with a little joy, only to find that the sun was gone.

The people on the road were not smiling, they all looked like they were in a hurry.

The breeze blew across my face, which was originally very comfortable.

Unexpectedly, not long after riding out, it started to rain lightly.

April Fool's Day

Wed, 01 Apr 2026 20:28:00 +0800

Today’s Fool’s Day, but it’s not about fools.

Last night was so tired that I could go to bed right after I had eaten. By the time I woke up today, my cell phone was out of battery to the point where it was off. The clock reached 8 o’clock and it took long hours to return to sleep to discover that he had been asleep for 11 hours. To be honest, it’s not reasonable to sleep for so long, but when I wake up, my head is like a computer’s “C” plate has been thoroughly washed, and it’s really clear and it’s really good to use it! Such efficiency has contributed so much to my work today that nothing can be done in a clear and quick manner. And that’s why, in reading today’s afternoon, you’re twice as efficient as you normally are.

Thoughts at the end of March

Tue, 31 Mar 2026 18:11:00 +0800

I woke up once at 3:30 this morning, and again at 7 o’clock this morning. When I woke up, I didn’t want to even look at the messages on my phone, so I just wanted to close my eyes and continue to rest for a while. Because I know very well how much I need to rest.

I hurried home last night and was eager to finish the meal and have a good rest after eating. As soon as I arrived, the washing machine repairman just started repairing the washing machine in my room. At that time, I couldn’t be nice to him, even though it might not be his fault. I came up and asked why it was repaired now. I had to cook as soon as possible. Also because it was a rainy day, the ground was extremely dirty and muddy from being trampled on. Even when the other party left, they did not perform any proper cleaning on my ground. So probably when he couldn’t solve the problem, the other party left, but I also sent him away as politely as possible. When I looked back at the mess in my room, I felt so speechless and helpless. After all, this is not the only time this happened, a similar situation happened just last week.

A day of crazy thinking

Mon, 30 Mar 2026 17:03:00 +0800

This morning it was windy, rainy and violent.

Sitting in front of the computer screen, I was learning to sing Japanese songs and thinking about how to go out next. Looking at the weather forecast, it was a hail warning day, as if a manic and incompetent man was going crazy. Fortunately, when I went out, the rain eased and the wind stopped, which made it easier for me to go to work normally.

3.23

Mon, 23 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0800

I had some troubles yesterday, and I tried to digest them by writing an article. This writing actually took up a lot of time for what I originally had to do, so my sleep last night was naturally delayed a lot. As a result, when I woke up the next day, I could almost be said to be slightly depressed. During the morning reading session, I can say that my efficiency was really not that high, let alone any gains. But no matter what, yesterday’s output did leave some valuable “legacy”. In line with this situation, I took advantage of the situation and chose to finish them one by one today…

This Saturday

Sun, 22 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0800

I had just finished lunch and was walking on my way to the cafe. Not long after I put on the headphones, two middle-aged people who looked like a couple came up to me and started talking to me. So I quickly took off my headphones and leaned forward to listen.

The other party spoke a strong Henan dialect. If the other party spoke faster or slower, I would not be able to understand him. Fortunately, it was just right and I was barely able to get my point across. Basically, they were working in Guangzhou and their boss ran away to Shenzhen without paying them wages, leaving them without money to eat or take a ride home. So he and I asked for money to eat and pay for the bus.

3.16

Mon, 16 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0800

After I woke up this morning, I felt much more energetic. Especially during the morning reading period, my memory and brain power were significantly improved. The main reason for this state is that I fell asleep early last night. Compared to myself a day ago, I am like this, and I am at least an hour ahead of schedule. Although the time of this day is still very random, this direction is actually correct. As for the past inconsistent tests, I have come to such a conclusion.

Getting things in order on Friday

Fri, 13 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Today I have become more familiar with the input method, so I also changed the language I use when chatting with AI from Chinese to English. So I suddenly felt that my entire input method had been raised to a higher level, and my input and output felt much more advanced. Well, it’s full of freshness!

This afternoon I accidentally came across a video: How to raise hamsters in a traditional way. It looks fun, can I play it like this?

It’s rare to be exhausted...

Thu, 12 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0800

It was another day of tossing, but this time too little was accomplished, because the time invested was not in one piece, and it was really unpleasant and unsmooth to do intermittently, so the task was more or less pieced together.

But my thoughts were written down, and all the work that could be done in time was done, so it was good for me to take a break for the time being.

Recording loneliness, talking to myself

Sun, 08 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Zifang went home this afternoon, ending his two-day short stay at my house. Then not long after he left, another friend of mine also went back after having dinner with me…

As I write this, my sense of isolation and loneliness has dissipated a lot. It seems that this has something to do with the action of starting to code, right? But what I want to say more is that I have actually experienced such a scene countless times. But in this aspect, I just seem to be extremely uncomfortable. No matter how many times I’ve experienced such separations, my emotions start to spiral wildly within the first few hours of their departure. I can’t tell what the taste is, but it just feels so uncomfortable in my stomach that I can’t describe it. Then watch them leave lovingly as they leave…

Crazy input!

Sat, 07 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Today I originally went to the company’s new location to check out the environment, and the journey was extremely long. However, halfway through, the person in charge of the company simply said there was no need to go. So I immediately took the subway back and ran to have lunch.

So the next path was all traceable. After lunch, I ran to the cafe, and sat there drinking cup after cup of coffee all afternoon. Then during my lunch break, I spent the entire afternoon listening to the one-hour recording and retraining of the 8 lesson.

The end of the holiday

Mon, 02 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0800

I took a nap at noon today, but this ordinary nap was the first nap I had taken in a long, long time. Because a long time ago, I gave up my lunch break completely. Because I think I can do anything I want. Although there were many difficulties and challenges throughout the correction process, I finally made it. But I still took a lunch break today. It was really because I had too little sleep at night recently. Due to these reasons, I was taking a lunch break while desperately trying to get out of my dream. At the same time, I felt unusually refreshed after waking up from my sleep. It’s the feeling of pleasure you get after resetting your computer. A lot of garbage has been removed, so everything feels refreshed. The streets in the afternoon were filled with a mixture of water, mud and dust due to the heavy snow that fell all day yesterday. When I walk on the road, I often have to be careful when walking. Just to see my hometown one more time before leaving my hometown, and to take advantage of the festive atmosphere to have more fun. This long-lost nap was like pressing a mandatory “one-click restore” for a system that had been overloaded for too long.

This is a casually written essay

Wed, 25 Feb 2026 00:00:00 +0800

My eyes are tired and dry, and I don’t know how long this state will last. Because this state can be solved by getting a good night’s sleep, but I have no interest in doing this, or I don’t know why I don’t do it. When I think about it, maybe it has something to do with my failure to wait for a ticket? Or is it because I didn’t get enough rest yesterday? Or maybe it’s because this year’s Spring Festival is too deserted and friends are drifting away day by day?

A slightly rushed day

Sat, 21 Feb 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Today’s article needs to be written more hastily, because the time to write the article is very late. And it was already twelve o’clock in the morning, which seriously delayed my sleep time. Fortunately, this happens only a few times a year, and it is something that will definitely happen every year. How to do it remains to be seen.

People always seem a little passive in front of time. The day was cut up by all kinds of trivial matters, and my attention seemed to be torn into pieces by invisible hands. When I really sat down, the night was already deep. Writing at this time is actually more like an explanation to oneself rather than an expression to the outside world. The difference between writing and not writing is not the eight hundred words, but a kind of continuous confirmation - confirmation that you are still on the road, confirmation that your thinking has not stopped, and confirmation that today has not been completely wasted.

On the night of the third day of the Lunar New Year

Thu, 19 Feb 2026 00:00:00 +0800

After I left my last relatives today, the year has come to an end. This year’s New Year flavor is definitely not enough for me, at least compared with 201 a few years ago, it is really far behind. But for me at this age, it doesn’t matter. What matters is whether what I need can be met?

——That is the time period for rest and adjustment. During this time, I spend time with my family and catch up with friends. Then if you have a little extra time, go read a book. Keep the time compact to a certain extent, which will be more conducive to returning to the original work intensity at any time.

Catching up, without overdoing it

Mon, 16 Feb 2026 23:45:01 +0800

Today is New Year’s Eve, the eve of the first day of the Lunar New Year, which is a bit “abrupt” to me. Especially this year, because I really don’t feel too many New Year elements. Especially during the Chinese New Year, the excitement that it should have is really not enough at all.

There were not many firecrackers on the street, and they were even somewhat silent; the New Year exclusive BGM on the streets and alleys was also much less frequent, and even Andy Lau came to New Year’s Eve in a daze without being unfrozen a few times.

Home is a gentle place

Sun, 15 Feb 2026 00:00:00 +0800

At home, the biggest difficulty is to do things “as calmly as possible”. When I got home, I thought I would work harder at things, but it turned out that I was struggling to find time and energy to do things quietly. After returning home, there will be countless temptations waiting for you. For example, there are a lot of foods I want to eat, a lot of people I want to see, and a lot of moments I want to lie down. But when I walked around the cold streets for a while, I would clearly realize that all of this was just the song of the siren. Do you dare to let yourself relax as you please? This is both a gentle town and a killing line!

Some thoughts on returning home for the New Year

Fri, 13 Feb 2026 15:01:01 +0800

I woke up early this morning. Although I didn’t have much expectations for going home, at least I didn’t take it too seriously! But what’s strange is that my biological clock is so greatly affected by this. The alarm clock that I couldn’t hear in the past was actually heard early this morning. When I heard it in the past, I could continue to sleep for a while with “peace of mind”, but today’s performance was completely the opposite. Not only was the cat constantly disturbing my sleep, but I was also feeling agitated inside.

The eve of the Spring Festival holiday

Thu, 12 Feb 2026 21:46:01 +0800

Today is the last day of my stay in Guangzhou. The day before I go back to my hometown for the New Year, I am still struggling: struggling to find some meaningful plans so that I can spend the next holiday more meaningfully.

I don’t like vague statements like “holidays are for a good rest.” I prefer to regard this holiday as a valuable thinking opportunity to think about what to do in the next year. **And because it is very short, it does not tolerate even a little bit of entertainment and squandering…

Wanting to write, without the energy to match

Tue, 10 Feb 2026 00:00:00 +0800

I was sitting in the office today and wanted to type some words, but my stomach just didn’t feel right and I felt a little nauseous. This state lasted for a long time and did not end. During this period, I drank tea to relieve my discomfort.

To be honest, it’s difficult to produce meaningful content in this state. Fortunately, I learned some new things by chatting with AI in the afternoon. Even though I was stuck in this disgusting state all day long, I still couldn’t accept it. Because compared to this kind of physical discomfort, the state of “doing nothing” will make me more unbearable.

In the hot spring, I still couldn't relax completely

Mon, 09 Feb 2026 20:01:01 +0800

I tried my best to get up early today, specifically to have breakfast. Then I suddenly discovered that you could also take a bath in the hot springs, so before everyone else got up, I “quietly” ran to grab a seat. Later, I unexpectedly discovered that from the time I started bathing in hot springs to the end, no one came to the “hot spring” place. When asked after the session, they still seemed indifferent. He shook his head and said in amazement that he could not bear the cold weather.

About calmness, seriousness, and not knowing what to do next

Sat, 07 Feb 2026 00:00:00 +0800

When I got up this morning, I found the cat running around and patting a small thing on the wall. At first I thought it was a mint ball attached to the wall, but then I saw the object being teased and moved back and forth by the cat, so my curiosity drove me to go forward and take a closer look: only to find out that it was the body of my little squirrel rat that had been growing for a long time and seemed to have outgrown it.

Long live friendship: a little gift that moved me

Sun, 01 Feb 2026 23:01:01 +0800

Life without friends must be dull. That thought has been with me for the past six months, and its voice keeps getting louder.

I still remember how little of a social life I had during my four years at university. Whenever I had time, I went to the library and stayed all day. When I felt particularly bottled up, I would work through my WeChat contacts, “bothering” friends one by one and asking them to talk. Over time, that did not work out very well. I often reached out only when I needed somewhere to put my feelings, and I think they began to find it tiring. Perhaps I chose bad moments. Perhaps I was simply poor at noticing how they felt and caused them more trouble than I realized.

The last day of January

Sat, 31 Jan 2026 16:00:00 +0800

Waking up this morning was the earliest day I woke up naturally recently. I woke up at about 7 o’clock in the morning and got up to practice Japanese. Even after practicing speaking, I went out to the shopping district and the shopping mall had not yet opened. So I suddenly became bored and even at a loss. Yes, since I have no experience of arriving here so early, after arriving here, I walked around briefly and then walked towards the subway entrance. Even though it’s a little rainy and I’m not sure what to do for a while, at least I still love drinking coffee! So I just kept thinking about it, and took the subway to go to a new concept store opened by Starbucks in Guangzhou.

1.29

Thu, 29 Jan 2026 00:00:00 +0800

Today I mainly did one type of thing: break up the separation. A relatively thorough action was taken to deal with the problem of lag on the mobile phone and the problem of disorganized bookmarks on the computer. The entire process adopted the principle of “first principles” and took nearly 4 hours to complete. When all the work was completed, the originally chaotic and irritable mood gradually calmed down. After everything cleared up, the various thoughts in my mind seemed to gradually become clearer.