I do not know...

Getting enough sleep quietly swept away much of yesterday’s exhaustion and fear. When I woke, nothing could scare me except the heavy rain outside. To avoid a downpour on the way to work, I took the subway instead of cycling. That was how my day began.

Work went smoothly enough this morning, including the expected rejections. I had started so early that there were hardly any customers around. I waited a long time before I could add a customer. Sometimes even a small task needs more than your own effort; several things have to line up.

I do not have much more to write. I only want to say again that the coffee at the café I once thought was so good is really just so-so. Now it even tastes a little cheap. Passing the same streets and buildings on my commute every day is boring. I hate the repetition and keep thinking about my future, which still looks very hazy. I cannot tell what comes next.

I do not know quite how I feel right now. All I know is that words are failing me…