I nearly fainted

It is the day before the typhoon. The weather keeps swinging between blazing sun and downpours. Perhaps it has helped me become more easygoing. I stayed polite even with rude people at work, though sometimes too much politeness has the opposite effect. Knowing the right balance is an art.

Since yesterday, I have noticed how beautiful the sky is: a deep blue behind thick white clouds. I can get so absorbed in it that I have to remind myself to watch the road and avoid an accident.

Looking up often makes me drift back to childhood. Then I begin looking at myself from above, almost as though I were outside my body. It is a strange, interesting way to examine my thoughts. From that distance, many fears and worries seem unnecessary. They hold back what I might do. It is a matter of the mind, and this imagined higher view helped me loosen its grip.

Perhaps that is why I did better today. But tonight, when I stood up from bed, I felt dizzy for more than ten seconds before it passed. I took it as a sign that I had eaten too few carbohydrates, and it frightened me. I put the few sweet potatoes I had at home straight into the air fryer…