Finally finding the courage

Every Sunday evening, I start dreading work on Monday. However much I resist the thought, I still have to go in the next morning. I know it is not a good pattern: it happens far too often. Sometimes I wonder how I differ from anyone else, or whether I am even more inclined to run away from things.

I asked an older colleague, who told me to learn to adapt. A teacher told me to meet life’s challenges with a more positive attitude. Looking inward, I think the best answer is to take the initiative.

On the subway just now, I saw a girl I wanted to meet, but I was nervous. I told myself that if we got off at the same stop, I would ask for her contact details. Perhaps she would go somewhere else and I would not have to do it. We got off together. Still nervous, I made another bargain with myself: if we took the same exit, I would ask. We did…

Each coincidence pushed me a little further. At last I gathered the courage and approached her in a place where no one else was nearby.

And then…

She said no.