Unspeakable pain

Today I have completed the most basic resignation process. I am confused about what to do next. Regarding my next arrangements, I am actually quite unhappy, and even feel vaguely painful. Now that I finally have time to write something, has the real pain in my heart been resolved? Now it seems that it is definitely not the case! There are ten thousand reluctances in my heart, and one million discomforts in my heart. I don’t know how to express myself. But there is a very important point, that is, it is best to take the initiative as much as possible. If you kill all the initiative, you will feel aggrieved by being passive and suppressed. Looking back on myself, why is it not like this?

I felt so unhappy and dissatisfied in my heart. Looking back now, I just feel endless sighs. It turns out that there are times when I am really speechless, and there are times when I feel so uncomfortable that I don’t know what to do. This is what I am like now. It is really a short dark moment. I seem to have a lot to say, but when it comes to my mouth, I don’t know what to say. In the end, what I express is completely different from what I really think in my heart, let alone what others hear.

At the same time, I would like to take this opportunity to express my special thanks to the company’s HR, my best friend of the same age, for taking care of my emotions. He had two meals with me and talked with me about many things. He was willing to tell me his true inner thoughts, which made me very happy and made me feel that not everyone in the company is indifferent.

The second one is my Eun Sang. He drank wine and had barbecue with me last night. It can be said that he chose to “take care of” me when I was most helpless, and I had a great sleep last night because of it!

The third one is my colleague, my sidekick. It’s not easy for her either, but she is still willing to treat me sincerely. She understands my delicate emotions and knows how to treat me reasonably. She talked to me a lot and helped me, making me realize that there are still people in this society that I can trust.

Given this, I don’t really know what to say further. Talking too much makes me moan for no reason. Then let’s do this for now!