Other people are mirrors

Today felt rushed and urgent, which I do not like. Looking back, I was trying to handle too many scattered things: I could barely manage my own tasks while helping someone else with theirs. I left my work unfinished and almost missed the last train. Yet the person I was frustrated with for getting things wrong reminded me of myself, now or in the past. I felt both patient and angry with this forgetful person. Patient, because I was helping; angry, because their mistakes cost both of us time. It gave me a clearer view of who I used to be. I understand my managers better now, and I dislike my old lack of drive and laziness even more.

Other people are mirrors. You can find parts of yourself in them, good and bad. This helped me see one of my own weaknesses, which is useful at least.

I have been busy lately, and I am deliberately testing my limits. I want to know how much I can handle. Tomorrow I plan to sleep until I wake naturally, then start work online.

That is often the tone of my blog updates: I am struggling to grow each day, and I do not want my future self to have regrets.