This day

I took a long lunch break today. I have never felt so tired and exhausted in the past period of time. Is it because you are adapting to the new environment? After all, this is usually the case in the beginning, right? I don’t really know, at least I don’t. It’s a bit difficult to do things at the beginning, it’s not that easy. It seems that Eun Sang is in the same state that I once told him. He often does bad things and is often scolded. But now he is much better, so his mentality and body have improved a lot. It’s all a process, but I also hope that I can change faster.

I felt more motivated to do things tonight, and I no longer felt that it was too late, so I just said one word: Do it! But I am still worried that the subway will be suspended, which will affect my subsequent work and rest and the next day’s work. So I still need to take the initiative to do things.

I adjusted my schedule to a state where I was still excited before ten o’clock in the evening. I actually still wanted to do something. For example, I need more time to learn some new concepts, I need some new efficiency methods to speed up my work efficiency, or there are more areas where I need to hone myself. So tomorrow I will find that there are many things that I cannot do well, and there are many things that I do very stupidly, so I am criticized every day, and I am forced to reflect every day, so I change and grow.

Although these processes are accompanied by too much distress, they are also an inevitable part of growth and an absolutely important part. It’s time to get off work now, and it’s also the last train time on the subway. But the subway still has the same sonorous and powerful sound during the day, but the people no longer do.

Necessary rest is important, as is the replenishment of spiritual food. If you have both, you will be absolutely invincible! I can’t understand why the new colleagues are so passive and powerless. This is not a casual judgment on my part. This is what I perceived in my daily interactions after working with him for two days. Her negative state was actually all over her face, I just didn’t say it out loud. When assisting her in doing things, she seems to be very impatient, not only in the present moment, but also in the past. Although I am a bit hesitant and timid now, I really know that I shouldn’t have too much contact with her. Because she doesn’t seem to value her own time very much, nor does she value my time and effort.

Now on the subway, I am still thinking about how to optimize my work tomorrow. Thinking about it, I can’t help but feel happy. Because I discovered that the room for improvement tomorrow is so huge!

Recently, I often think back to the teachings of my old leaders in the past. Their efforts were genuine and their intentions were genuine, but I just didn’t understand them. Now that the knocking has become more noticeable, I feel that this awakening is still a little late. I used to go to Walmart every night after I got home or pass by it. But now that I have returned home, the place has been closed, and I still feel that things have changed.