May 11

Last night’s blog entry was only a few keywords. It may have looked careless, but yesterday really was that busy. I met and talked with friends in the morning, then rushed to a café after lunch to sort through some ideas. After that I bought groceries, joined friends for dinner, and played badminton with someone new. Then came a haircut 💇, a shower, and cupping. It was nearly one in the morning when I finished. I had to compromise somewhere for the sake of my body.

So much happened that I still have not processed it all. I met new people but have had no time to get to know them better. I want many things, most of all to grow faster, contribute where I work now, and become someone who can take responsibility.

I also want both more time with friends and more time to myself. Right now I cannot have both, though things are improving.

I have made big changes to adapt to my new workplace and taken on new challenges. It has been tiring. But everyone goes through difficult stretches. What would avoiding mine achieve? Facing it gives me a better chance.

Monday is over. It feels like winning a battle. I still could have done some things better; I spent too much time and energy on things that did not matter.

Using my time more wisely is a way to respect it.