Keep working on myself

Perhaps it is wise to speak and act according to the stage you are in. At a new company, my first job is to put my pride aside and learn seriously from people with more experience. I want to build a life I will not regret, and I am even being paid while I learn. There is something wonderful about growing and earning at the same time.

I am in a hard stretch of that climb. So what if it is tiring? I had arranged to hike with a friend tomorrow, but unexpected overtime has changed my plans. For now I need to work with my teammates. I can see my friend later in the holiday. I should keep asking myself what matters most.

On the subway home I feel fairly relaxed because today was not wasted. Neither was yesterday, nor the day before. There were challenges, but I kept finding a way through. Hard things are part of it. I can face this.

That returns me to yesterday’s question: if life were a game, how would I play? I would try more things. In a game I would not be so afraid of embarrassment or mistakes; I would keep moving. If I really believed I could live that way, perhaps life would be richer. Why not try?

The world I see reflects something of what is inside me. We inhabit the same world, but our values make it feel different to each of us.