April 18

I visited my old university today. It was interesting to see so many familiar places, yet feel out of place as I walked around. Perhaps my new position in life gives me a different perspective. The campus has changed too: facilities have been renovated, and shops I knew have closed or been replaced. Some corners feel unfamiliar now. What clearer trace of passing time could there be?

The day is almost over. It has been ordinary enough, though I may notice its small lessons later. Every bite of strongly flavored food today seemed to bring a wave of guilt, like water about to boil over a pot. I had planned two indulgent meals, yet after one bite of mala ban I became cautious. I was just as hesitant over a second bowl of vegetables. Later I tried to make up for my earlier “offenses”: I did not finish my coffee ice cream, and I kept checking the ingredients on an electrolyte drink before deciding whether I would need more exercise.

And that was the day. The plain account reflects how it really felt. Near home I had a German beer to ease my tiredness. No particular thoughts or feelings to add.