Do not blame myself needlessly

My lunches have been too small. For the past two afternoons I have needed extra food just to stop feeling hungry. No wonder I was irritable. Yesterday it took two packs of ready-to-eat chicken and two ice creams. Today I had even less lunch and no black coffee, so I went downstairs for a spicy snack after already eating an ice cream. That still was not enough. I drank water and tried to hold out until work ended, then ate at home. I will need to buy enough food next week.

I hesitated before having another snack because I really was hungry. If this keeps happening for months, the problem is with my weight-loss plan, and I need to examine it. Sustainable results come from a routine I can actually live with, not from calling on willpower over and over.

I think of Christians praying and worshipping every week. To an outsider it may look like discipline, but to someone who truly believes, it can feel as natural as eating or drinking. That belief is built into the foundations of the routine. To achieve something, perhaps I need to believe sincerely in the goal and make it part of how I see myself.

That is also why I should be careful about talking myself down. I do not want to give my mind more chances to believe I am incapable and make the belief come true.

Did the extra food today matter? Yes, because it prompted this thought. But the larger issue is building a better plan.