The first day of Qingming holiday

As soon as the weekend comes to rest, I give priority to thinking about what I will do and learn the next day, and I never think about how to play or relax myself. As time went by, I became a person who would not take a break and the boundary between working days and rest days was blurred to the point where when it was time to relax, I became clumsy. The whole person looked a little dull. Specifically, his movements were somewhat deformed. So now it seems that I have deviated from my original intention, and gradually lived a life that I hate… (It is really bad to not understand the way of life)

Going out for a walk with Eun Sang today, if it goes as planned, should be very interesting, at least it won’t be a boring comparison! Of course, this is compared to me at home. But the result was the other way around. We didn’t know where to have more fun throughout the day. Playing in a secret room? See a movie? Drinking coffee? None of them could be said to be together, so I walked around in various shopping malls in an extremely boring way. Today’s outdoor activities ended with a feeling of extreme boredom. At this time, I was really exhausted both physically and mentally.

When I got home, I felt like a person whose muscles had been stretched to pieces and collapsed directly on the bed. Eun Sang asked me to get up and eat. I didn’t even want to move my mouth, let alone move my mouth. In fact, if you think about it this way, aren’t we a vulnerable group? It is too easy to be limited by one’s own physical conditions, and for me, this is simply my most fatal and major BUG.

I remember that when I was losing weight in college, I often shouted “Senior Year Spirit” to cheer myself up, so I really “accidentally” did a lot of behaviors that are now considered “prehistoric power”. You can basically run your body at high speed throughout the day, and gradually complete your goals steadily and firmly. But when I reflected on why I thought this way, I suddenly realized another point about myself: It seems that I have more steel and less energy at the moment. How to explain it specifically?

Before I went to college, when I joined the freshmen group, I asked my seniors what time our classes would start in the morning. I was extremely shocked when I learned that classes started at 8:20! When I asked, “Why is it so late?”, the senior brother replied to me sincerely: “You feel this way now, but you won’t think so when you go to college.” After I thanked him doubtfully, I started my college life with such curiosity.

Later life was indeed as the senior brother said. It was indeed the case. Basically, you wouldn’t see anyone having breakfast in the cafeteria before eight o’clock. Maybe it has something to do with the environment? I didn’t think much about it, but I became the only one in the dormitory. It seemed that I later learned that I was also the only student in the class or even the entire college who got up at six o’clock every morning and went to the playground to exercise. Later, when I recalled my senior brother’s words, I think now I have the answer, that is, people who have specific goals in mind may become the “Yukimura deviation”. And I am that.

When I thought about this, I suddenly became enlightened. yes! My attitude towards work and how I treat time in the office also directly reflect one thing: I have something to do on my mind, so I rarely chat with my colleagues. When everyone has nothing to do, I am still the busiest person in the company. But despite this, I still clearly felt that my mental strength seemed to be quietly retreating, my self-confidence seemed to be being subtly eroded, and I even started to feel a little timid.

I want to continue to sound the alarm to myself: always be prepared for the worst, and when dealing with some important things, you must always maintain an innocent heart, have the energy that young people should have, and the prudence that older people should have! Otherwise, my life will really be over! Set a specific goal…