A big change

As time goes by, you will find that the person you didn’t understand when you were a child turns out to be that person unintentionally.

When I was a child, or when I was not very old, I would often get entangled with someone older than me, asking him to play with me and make trouble with me. At that time, when we were having fun, we would be suddenly interrupted by the other party’s “silence”. For example, the other party suddenly had a call to answer, so the “little adult” who was playing with me just now suddenly changed back to what I didn’t like to see: a serious and tense face, a boring “adult look”. Because of this, after I lost my “playmate” all of a sudden, I returned to a boring state where I could only play with myself…

I actually hate it when adults are in such a “state” because I think it’s very boring. This idea lasted until half a year after I graduated from college. That is to say, in the recent period, I often cannot have enough time and reasonable energy to respond to my “colleagues”. She would often call me and share with me her joyful things or interesting experiences. I also want to hear it, but almost every time it coincides with the time when I am working. The other person was telling me interesting stories about himself passionately, but every time, by coincidence, he was busy typing on the keyboard or thinking. The other person was very polite and subconsciously stopped when he saw that I was busy. Although I was also trying hard to “accept” the other person’s “kindness”, one eye was staring at the computer screen and the other was trying hard to move in her direction, which made her look awkward. So in this way, I gradually became a friend that she was not willing to share with. (It’s really a pity…) Whenever I hear “complaints” about me in my spare time, I will think of myself more than ten years ago. In that case, I had hundreds of words on my lips, but I couldn’t say even a single sentence.

Later, when I often recalled these moments, I often sighed: Isn’t it rare that I don’t like to chat with my friends about some interesting experiences and have fun? I definitely want that too! But why doesn’t it happen to me every time? What happened to me at that time seemed to be very important, even though I still feel the same way when I think about it today. But this situation seems to be similar every day. After finishing this thing, I will go to that thing. It seems like there is no time for rest.

It seems that even now when I recall the reason, I just feel that it is just a necessary state after growing up. This is especially true when you have a set and firm goal in your heart!

But this kind of “busyness” seems to be quite addictive. Even though I was busy like a top, I didn’t feel any discomfort. Just after finishing the things at hand, continue to prepare for new projects.

As for whether it is worth it, it seems that we will only be able to see more clearly in a few years. Not only yourself, but also your own “bystanders”…

By the way, starting from today, I have started to make some “big moves” again. And this is just something that should be done sooner or later, and it is something that should be done sooner rather than later, faster than slowly.

This afternoon we have started to work on the community, started to make major changes to the WeChat official account, and started to seriously rectify the “Fixed Investment List”.

Regarding specific matters, I also had in-depth discussions with my AI assistant.

So in the coming days, such changes will become more and more “massive”…