Recording loneliness, talking to myself
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Zifang went home this afternoon, ending his two-day short stay at my house. Then not long after he left, another friend of mine also went back after having dinner with me…
As I write this, my sense of isolation and loneliness has dissipated a lot. It seems that this has something to do with the action of starting to code, right? But what I want to say more is that I have actually experienced such a scene countless times. But in this aspect, I just seem to be extremely uncomfortable. No matter how many times I’ve experienced such separations, my emotions start to spiral wildly within the first few hours of their departure. I can’t tell what the taste is, but it just feels so uncomfortable in my stomach that I can’t describe it. Then watch them leave lovingly as they leave…
There is no such thing as a banquet that lasts forever. I think this statement is particularly ruthless. Although this is true, I don’t want to accept this fact, at least for the time being. While I was having dinner with another friend, Eun Sang, I asked him if he had any regrets of his own, and he shared his story with me. I appreciate how genuine he is with me, just like I am trying to be as genuine as I can with everyone from beginning to end. He told me about his past, from when he was 16 to his present. He shared with me his first experience in working in an electronics factory and his inner feelings at that time. He told me what life was like in an electronics factory, and how he felt inside when he was like that. I was happy to hear his inner feelings, and I often admired his tolerance while listening. Because when I first worked part-time at the age of 19, I couldn’t hold on to even doing odd jobs for two or three hours at Burger King part-time. This makes me feel deeply touched when I hear that people get up at eight o’clock in the morning and don’t get off work until ten o’clock in the evening!
Later, we talked a lot more, such as our views on fate, love, loneliness, etc., and I found that the other person was much more vivid than I originally knew, and he was also much more real and down-to-earth than I originally imagined. At the same time, I am also sincerely grateful that I have such a kind and sincere friend like him. Later, while we were walking and observing, I suddenly thought about how numb and mechanical I seemed to have become as I became too accustomed to being alone. It seems that in the past two days, I have not taken good enough care of the ovary. Of course, I am also trying to change this state, but I will soon find that there is no need to continue to do this, because there is a high probability that he will understand and even get used to some of my practices. But if it doesn’t work, no matter how much I try to save it, it will still be a last resort. So I lamented that I always failed to do well in other aspects of who I wanted to be. The inability of people to do things perfectly is probably related to the fact that people’s energy is really limited.
Starting from tomorrow, I will start a new round of healthy living. The specific content is: action on an empty stomach!
I hate ambiguity and lack of clarity, so let me once again attach my standards of action at the end:
| ⁇ Time scale ⁇ state valve ⁇ Execute action & physiological gain (Buff) ⁇ | ||
|---|---|---|
| 19:30 | 🔻 “The fast’s on.”⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇**Internal changes:**Insulin began to decline and the body was prepared to switch to the energy supply model. Zirconium | |
| 23:00 | 🌙 “Deeply repaired.”⁇ ⁇ normal sleep.**Internal changes:**The growth hormones were distributed in large quantities and the rehabilitation of the skin barrier began. Zirconium | |
| 08:30 | 🌊 **♪ Hungry surfing ♪**Wake up! Wake up! Have a cup of black coffee or sugar-free green tea.**Implementation actions:**Opened for 1 hour [Dueless Reading].**Internal changes:**Self-absorption period! Accelerating dermal degradation of dark sediments (AGEs). Zirconium | |
| 11:45 | 🍎 Food preheat{\cHFFFFFF}{\cH00FFFF} {\cHFFFFFF}{\cH00FFFF} {\cHFFFFFF}{\cH00FFFF} {\cHFFFFFF}{\cH00FFFF} {\cHFFFFFF}{\cH00FFFF}{\cH00FFFF}{\cH00FFFF} 15 minutes before the meal, a glass of warm water to a spoon of apple vinegar.**Internal changes:**It’s not like we’re going to be able to stop the upcoming blood sugar boom. Zirconium | |
| 12:00 | 🟢 **“Big Dynamite.”**Food by order: 1. Eat vegetables 2. Eat meat and eggs 3. Eat carbon water.**Internal changes:**Perfectly achieved 16.5 hours of self-infliction! FoxO1 oil switch on. Zirconium | |
| 14:00 | ⚡ ♪ The moment of my heart ♪♪ Bang, bang, bang, bang, bang ♪**Implementation actions:**Enjoy the most sober brain output.**Internal changes:**The blood sugar is extremely flat, and it’s in the form of fat and high-profile. Zirconium | |
| 18:30 | 🍲 “Resumed dinner”⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇**Implementation actions:**For the next 16.5 hours of fasting, we’ll reserve the energy base. Zirconium | |
| 19:30 | 🔺 [Closed Locks]⁇ ⁇ close again. Perfectly closed! Zirconium |
self_healing_timeline:
- time: "19:30"
state: "Fasting begins"
action: "Stop eating completely and begin a water fast"
physiological_benefits:
- "Insulin starts falling; the body prepares to switch fuel sources"
- time: "23:00"
state: "Deep repair"
action: "Sleep as usual"
physiological_benefits:
- "Growth hormone is released in large amounts and begins repairing the skin barrier"
- time: "08:30"
state: "Surfing hunger"
action:
- "Get up! Have black coffee or unsweetened green tea (to suppress ghrelin)"
- "Begin one hour of daily reading aloud"
physiological_benefits:
- "The prime period for autophagy! Faster breakdown of skin-dulling AGEs"
- time: "11:45"
state: "Preparing to eat"
action: "15 minutes before the meal, drink warm water mixed with a spoonful of apple cider vinegar"
physiological_benefits:
- "Reduce the upcoming blood sugar spike in advance"
- time: "12:00"
state: "Lunch to break ketosis"
action: "Eat between 12:00 and 12:30 in this order: 1. vegetables → 2. meat and eggs → 3. carbohydrates"
physiological_benefits:
- "A full 16.5 hours of autophagy completed! The FoxO1 oil-control switch turns on"
- time: "14:00"
state: "Flow time"
action:
- "Start the daily 1,000-character writing practice!"
- "Enjoy working at your clearest"
physiological_benefits:
- "Extremely stable blood sugar; a state of fat burning and high concentration"
- time: "18:30"
state: "The final meal"
action:
- "Eat a normal, satisfying dinner and limit free sugars where possible"
- "Store up energy for the next 16.5-hour fast"
- time: "19:30"
state: "Closing time"
action: "Begin fasting again. The cycle is complete!"