Thoughts in the office

Today is my second day in Guangzhou. Sitting at my workstation, I looked at the Pearl River out the window with a sense of melancholy. Facing the current situation without any work arrangements or goals, it seems that I have almost nothing better to do at the moment except to deal with it quietly. Say you are worried, that is true; say you are not worried, it seems true. It was as if I was in the state before I was about to start doing something new, and now I had reached the critical point of a certain state.

To be honest, I still haven’t found a job that I really enjoy doing. In other words, it seems unrealistic to expect such a job, especially for me now. web3 job is a job category that I was very interested in when I graduated. However, after working for half a year, I am almost completely disenchanted with this job category and even completely disappointed. Because I looked at this type of work with a filter before, my disappointment with this type of work has deepened a lot. So when dealing with any job that comes next, there will be a “make ends meet” mentality. I began to invest more energy into my side business: the field of self-media. This state really made me feel mentally depressed for a large part of the day. Regarding this situation, I also need to spend more time and energy reflecting on it.

Quite contradictory! Generally speaking, if you want a higher salary, you have to work harder; if you want more freedom, you need a lower salary. Of course, this kind of observation was somewhat naive thinking a few years ago. Now that I think more deeply, I will find that in fact, there is no ceiling on income in the long run for jobs that are more autonomous and free. This type of job generally corresponds to the sales category; while jobs with high salaries and hard work generally have less room for advancement, just like a screw within the company. In the long run, it will be easier to develop a worker mentality.

So after thinking about it this way, I further discovered that the best job is actually a job in an independent category: sales. The more advanced ones are producers, and employees in this type of work have greater room for improvement. But the most awesome thing is the position that combines production and sales. Such people are called super individuals in modern society. So I set a career plan path for myself as follows: gold medal sales (production as a side job) - a person who is both a producer and a seller. Such a work path will be clearer. At the current stage, I am also taking my spare time to explore my own side business. Maintaining a daily output of a thousand words is a basic daily skill. And daily reflection on oneself, rapid iteration, and bug fixing are things that must be done as soon as possible every day.

I can’t predict what kind of person I will become in the next five years. I only know that maintaining the energy of my youth and the current state of continuous iteration is the best action I can make at the moment.

What often gives me peace of mind or peace of mind is not the high salary I receive, but the fact that in the same group of college students entering society, such worries are indiscriminately given to everyone of the same age. I am looking forward to having some communication with them, and want to know how they are doing every day, what kind of efforts they make every day to change the status quo, etc. These points often pop up in my mind, making me realize that I’m not alone, and therefore stop being afraid. To be honest, I often think about this question. I also often get excited about hearing real feedback from my peers, just like what I heard from that girl yesterday afternoon.

The sky in Guangzhou is cloudy. Looking out of the office window, the gray sky is a bit discouraging. The water of the Pearl River is still flowing round the clock, and it is also quietly listening to what is happening in the city every day. And right now, sitting at a certain table in a certain room on a certain floor of an office building in Guangzhou, is Pearl River also listening to my worries and thoughts?