This is a casually written essay

My eyes are tired and dry, and I don’t know how long this state will last. Because this state can be solved by getting a good night’s sleep, but I have no interest in doing this, or I don’t know why I don’t do it. When I think about it, maybe it has something to do with my failure to wait for a ticket? Or is it because I didn’t get enough rest yesterday? Or maybe it’s because this year’s Spring Festival is too deserted and friends are drifting away day by day?

If I continue to be confused like this, maybe I will gradually fall into an unnecessary “feeling of lovelorn”. The lovelorn partner may be of the opposite sex, or it may definitely be of the same sex. The other party is not only the person with whom you had an ambiguous relationship, but also a friend with whom you have a better relationship. Perhaps I began to feel a strong sense of loss and loneliness as the other person’s attitude towards me became increasingly cold. At the same time, I may feel a strong sense of joy with the other person’s sudden reply. This back and forth kept me in control, and I often had a feeling of “worrying about gains and losses.”

This morning I successfully solved the problems left yesterday. At the same time, I also helped some friends in the group to learn new things and mobilized the less active friends to actively learn and communicate in the group. I think this is in line with my original intention of establishing this group, which is to help everyone make money and learn something together. I think this action itself is very fun. It was also in the next dozen hours that I lost the desire to rest. I kept pursuing the victory and did things, and finally I discovered that the idea I had last year: one person is a company, was successfully implemented with the help of openclaw technology!

So I immediately recruited Musk as my product manager, Buffett as my financial director, and Jia Yueting as my product research and development. So one of my ideas became more mature and more practical and implementable after asking these three strongest minds. Such success undoubtedly inspired me to continue doing it. This is also the truly valuable part of what I have learned from working on AI!

So suddenly, I realized that my learning ability seemed to need to be improved again so that I could cope with more complex work processes and implement better ideas in the future. So with this kind of motivation, I did take the refresher course “The Truth of Learning” again. In this study, I also freely adjusted the multiplier according to the content of the course in order to achieve the optimal input rhythm range. At the same time, I discovered too many bugs that needed to be fixed in the process to fill my brain tank. Learning like this feels like a joy, satisfaction and joy!

Lately my mind has been full of unfamiliar thoughts—perhaps too many, though most have appeared only in the past year. For example, I really have the consciousness to learn a certain skill by myself just for the purpose of making things, instead of the previous kind of learning for the sake of learning, learning certain knowledge or skills in order to complete tasks and cope with exams. I think this was an important milestone for me: it made me realize that I can do almost anything I want to try.That has given my confidence an enormous boost. I have also gradually become a little bolder. To put it more frankly, it means that I have become more real and started to express what I really want in my heart instead of suppressing myself like before.If I want a hug from a friend, I am more willing to ask, even if being turned down might feel awkward. I will give priority to speaking out the truest feeling in my heart. This state of mind is also a very obvious thing that I have perceived in the past month or two. I think this idea not only comes from the psychological construction I have done repeatedly for myself, but also comes from the inspiration of my good friend “Edison”.

Speaking of him! He is very handsome, not only for his physical appearance, but also for his inner feeling. I have been lucky enough to communicate with him many times in the past year, or he ranks as the number one person among my friends. I learned a lot of positive points from him: if you have love, express it boldly, because if you do things in this way, the people around you will also become such people. Think about it, then you will be surrounded by so many simple and honest friends! Also, there is often a calmness about him. If he is the calm lake surface, I am the sea surface that is often turbulent. It’s not about which one is better, but the process of mutual appreciation and mutual learning is the most perfect state. Maybe this is why I often think of him! Therefore, a place like the diary should have his seat.