On the night of the third day of the Lunar New Year

After I left my last relatives today, the year has come to an end. This year’s New Year flavor is definitely not enough for me, at least compared with 201 a few years ago, it is really far behind. But for me at this age, it doesn’t matter. What matters is whether what I need can be met?

——That is the time period for rest and adjustment. During this time, I spend time with my family and catch up with friends. Then if you have a little extra time, go read a book. Keep the time compact to a certain extent, which will be more conducive to returning to the original work intensity at any time.

Of course, I always feel like I spent these few days in a dream. Because many things feel unrealistic and unreal. For example, in the six days since returning home to now, I feel that the time has passed very vaguely and out of place; and in the past period of time, I seem to have done nothing, but I also seem to have done something. But which of these things can only be done during such a holiday? That means you can spend time with your family and friends! At least a whole block of uninterrupted time doesn’t exist this holiday season. As long as you are at home, especially during the New Year and holidays, a good and complete uninterrupted time block does not exist, and it is even less likely to be used for some in-depth research and study.

When I came home and realized this, I slowly made the choice to accept it. Then let’s make peace with it. Since there is no way to fight against the environment, the best way is to choose to accept it. So I chose to settle for the next best thing and do what I could. So, I accepted that I wouldn’t be able to fulfill the goals I had set for myself at the beginning of the vacation. I will do my best to do whatever is right for me. And for things that I have no chance to do, I should give up and give up. With such a mentality, you will hesitate and even doubt yourself a few times at first, whether you are being lazy? Is it really okay to do this yourself? Have you made the most of your vacation time?

This kind of thinking is actually a new idea and a new mentality that has been gradually cultivated in the past few years while constantly making plans. Therefore, this approach made me, who didn’t have much psychological burden, become more relaxed and comfortable. Just like when I was writing an article at the moment, the noise around me never stopped, which also caused my thoughts to often appear in intermittent fragments. I will be a little irritable at first and want to change to a quiet environment to do it. But such an environment does not exist. After coding for a while, I slowly figured it out.

——In fact, this kind of environment is more suitable for you to write words: describe your surrounding environment and psychological activities by writing words. In this way, when I recall it one day in the future, I will find it interesting and documentary.

As I write this, I am more than an hour away from going back to work. I don’t have any psychological disturbances at this moment, as if leaving home and going to a foreign country is no different than staying in the current state. Whether you are doing things in the field, you are still doing things at home. Staying one more day will not solve any substantive problems. On the contrary, the more you encounter such emotional fetters, the more decisive you must be in order to better solve this kind of problem that seems to be a “permanent dilemma” from a long-term perspective.

Well, that’s today’s essay. Good night everyone!