The eve of the Spring Festival holiday

Today is the last day of my stay in Guangzhou. The day before I go back to my hometown for the New Year, I am still struggling: struggling to find some meaningful plans so that I can spend the next holiday more meaningfully.

I don’t like vague statements like “holidays are for a good rest.” I prefer to regard this holiday as a valuable thinking opportunity to think about what to do in the next year. **And because it is very short, it does not tolerate even a little bit of entertainment and squandering…

I’m glad that I have such “utilitarianism”, because it often gives me the opportunity to discover my mistakes in time. But it’s also very helpless, because the more you do it, the more likely you are to get counterproductive results. For example, this is what I looked like this afternoon…

After finishing lunch, I still didn’t know where to go next. But I know whenever this happens, I end up going to a coffee shop. Especially the kind of coffee shop that is empty or relatively less lively. When you get there, you can read the Bible quietly for a while and let your thoughts wander randomly for a while.

This strategy is relatively better, at least in later years. After I landed in a deserted coffee shop, I started by reading the Bible to warm up. Maybe it’s because I ate pasta for lunch. After I drank half a glass of iced Americano, I started to feel sleepy. At that time, the surrounding atmosphere was quite cooperative with me, and I was soon brought into dreamland. Although I wanted to wake up several times, I finally felt that it would be more comfortable to sleep a little longer, so I just let my feelings go.

After I woke up, my brain suddenly seemed to work much better. Immediately afterwards, my thoughts began to wander involuntarily. It’s the same with reading X and scrolling through tweets, but doing it before going to bed and after going to bed are two completely different states. After waking up, my mind felt like it had been updated and restarted, trying to find the one I needed most among the many tweets.

It was also during this “eureka moment” that I suddenly realized that it was not that there were not many things that I had to do, but that there were so many things that I couldn’t even begin to do. For example: I need to learn how to use Git, understand the Go language, and continue to think about clawdbot (lobster) until I can make a commercial product. I am still a little confused about the similarities and differences between Linux systems, Windows systems, and Mac systems. Although I have searched, I still haven’t really solved the difficult points in my mind. Which system is more suitable for me at this stage? Although I have relatively much time to think about these AIs during the holidays. Open source gadgets, but whether you have enough funds to support yourself to burn more tokens, the recharge entrance of ChatGPT has not been really solved, etc.

When I thought about this, I was both excited and slightly melancholy. But fortunately, I still have the energy to struggle. Then try it first.

But going deeper, I actually know. There is no shortage of such exciting ideas in my mind. But every time the ending ends in a hasty manner, and there is absolutely no necessary summary and reflection. This makes it difficult for many of my passions to become stronger each time because there are too many “regrets”. And what exactly is this “regret” and what causes it. Due to my lack of seriousness in this aspect, I have become unable to trace the source, which is a waste…

I still remember what happened with a crypto bot that started around September last year and ended up hastily last week. Although that experience allowed me to gain some basic practical experience on the Internet, due to the lack of complete and serious thinking at the beginning, I found that it was not of much use and had to give up. It can be said that it is a bit wasteful. A lot of “time cost” is wasted in it, which is actually an extremely irresponsible performance.

Because of this, I need to be cautious and rigorous in what I do next…

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