When I want to write but have no energy

I sat in the office wanting to write, but my stomach felt unsettled and I was slightly nauseous. Tea helped a little. In that condition, making anything meaningful was difficult. I did learn something by talking with AI later in the afternoon. Being unable to do anything all day would have bothered me even more than the discomfort itself.

I tried to think through things, but no valuable idea came. The wish to write was real and strong, yet it vanished as quickly as it appeared: each time I prepared to begin, my energy disappeared. I do not know exactly why. Everyday concerns have been weighing on me, and going to sleep at two yesterday morning cannot have helped, even though I slept earlier last night.

Several things have fallen below my own standard lately: exercise, reviewing my writing course, and planning for the short winter break. I can see practical obstacles behind each one:

• Exercise: The trip to and from the gym is long and inconvenient. A small delay can unsettle an already tight schedule and drain my mood. There is also too little equipment for the number of people there, so I spend at least thirty percent extra time waiting to complete a set.
• Writing course: My schedule is so crowded that I cannot always fit the review in. I blame myself, then realize that, given the circumstances at the time, I often did the best I could.
• Break planning: A month before Spring Festival, I usually have clear ideas for the time off. This year, as it approaches, my plans have become harder to see—as if a once-clear window had been smeared over. Cleaning it will take patient work.

Writing those three problems down has cleared some space in my head. I have a lot to do, and I need to do it with a clearer mind.