Treating myself as a project

Lately my mind seems most active at noon, when I sit on the grass with a Bible and the Pearl River flows past. Plans and ideas keep breaking the surface. I stop reading to write them down, then look toward Canton Tower and the surrounding buildings with a feeling of possibility.

I do not know what these ideas will be worth. Recording them is the useful thing I can do now. I also see many flaws in the way I work and feel pressed to fix them. The result is a mix of pleasure, fear, tension, and uncertainty. Once I treat myself as a project, perhaps that state never ends: tomorrow’s version of me can always improve on today’s.

Careful observation can reveal selfishness or dishonesty in others. Yet the same people can be kind, funny, and hopeful. I want to remember both sides instead of idealizing or rejecting someone wholesale. I can learn from what people say and do without pretending they are perfect.

In the years since ChatGPT appeared, I have watched AI products and the companies supplying them grow quickly. Nvidia, memory-chip makers, coding assistants, and tools such as Claude Code and Clawdbot have all drawn my attention. I believe many ordinary people still underestimate how much AI could change their work over the coming years. That is my judgment from using the tools; I want to keep testing it as the technology changes.

If I look back in a year and think I had nothing to learn, I may only be repeating the same mistake. I would rather notice where today’s understanding falls short.